The Gap You Can’t See (and the life you build anyway).
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The Gap You Can’t See (and the life you build anyway).

Last night we asked: what is self-deception and how is it even possible? The question begins with a paradox—how can you deceive your own mind? Tim opened with 13,000 days sober and the gift of confronting every layer of self-deception. Jim talked about imposter syndrome and suddenly deception wasn't about lying—it was about the gap we can't see yet. Jane said self-deception is how we make a life, told us about a 50-year marriage built on a story she chose to tell herself. My pen ran out of ink while Bill was asking whether truth can emerge from a lie. Brother Fred watered a dead plant for months because his novice master told him to. Nothing happened to the stick. But something happened to Brother Fred. We never agreed whether self-deception is bad or adaptive, local or global, a gap or a creative force. Maybe it's just the way we course-correct when we can't see the whole picture. The lie we tell ourselves so we can keep moving. The story we build so we can make a life.

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Discrete as I wanna be.

Discrete as I wanna be.

Thom wanted to know: is there such a thing as freewill? Jan's nephew thinks God only cares when you're sad, broken, or dead. Bob's riding hard for complexity. Don won't spoil a 100-year-old book. And I confessed I find determinism comforting—because we're still the vessels through which it all flows, still experiencing choice even if it's not "free."

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Sportsball is an Ethical Circus

Sportsball is an Ethical Circus

Had sick kid, aging is stupid, and I missed Scoundrels. This week you get the raw recording instead of my usual reflection. The whole mess of wrestling with sports and if they have to be ethical - like at their heart are they possible without ethics? Is it cheating if everyone's doing it? What's the difference between fair and ethical? Listen and tell me what you think of this experiment.

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How Many Scoundrels does it take to Count the Greek Muses?
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How Many Scoundrels does it take to Count the Greek Muses?

"What is a muse?" Don asked. He's dealing with creative block and wondering: Can you summon a muse? Imagine one into being? Or does it have to be real?

Fifteen of us wrestled with it. We talked about Greek muses, courtly love, stalking behavior, feminist critique, Hannah the bird sculptor, and whether AI could be a muse.

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What My Bisabuela Knew
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What My Bisabuela Knew

The weird part of being a mix kid is how you understand that you both belong to more and less than those who aren't. I'm faced with this a lot right now. The two worlds in which I am both a part of and removed from. And a reality that my last name is more dangerous to have than I'm used to. I am proud of my heritage. I also gulped and did a quick memory check on who's name our cars were registered in when ICE made it to our corner of the state.

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Ever wonder about tugboat tea?
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Ever wonder about tugboat tea?

What does it mean to wonder? We explored wonder as aesthetic experience, metabolic process, and foundation of freedom. We debated whether the internet destroys wonder or opens it up, why schools systematically kill curiosity, and at what point water becomes water. Plus: Seth's very stochastic tea.

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How  “Third Spaces” Keep us  Human
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How  “Third Spaces” Keep us  Human

Third spaces are the coffee shops, breweries, and libraries where we go to be among people without having to do anything for them. Philosophy thrives in these places because they create the conditions for genuine dialogue—where you can bump up against ideas that aren't yours, perspectives that surprise you, and questions you didn't know you had.

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Are You in Your Gollum Stage?
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Are You in Your Gollum Stage?

"I've got three words for you, Seth: Star Trek." Bob thought maybe everything that makes us human is longing itself. Richard called it a persistent delusion we should let go of. Tonia said she's grown to view it as a precious sign of vitality. The room was laughing through a lot of this, the kind of playful engagement that comes when people are genuinely wrestling with ideas together.

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Mother Teresa Was a One-Trick Pony
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Mother Teresa Was a One-Trick Pony

Last night at Bridge & Tunnel, Fondren asked: What is comfort, and why do we seek it? The conversation explored comfort as spectrum, the difference between comfort and indulgence, whether fights can be rest, how comfort gets weaponized, and if society should cultivate it. We ended without answers—just better questions. Mother Teresa was definitely a one-trick pony.

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What Are Games and Why Do We Play Them?
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What Are Games and Why Do We Play Them?

What are games and why do we play them? We wandered through questions of survival versus pleasure, whether solitaire is a puzzle or a game, how games reflect and reinforce social hierarchies, and why imagination might be the through-line connecting it all. More questions than we started with totally par for the course.

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